How lonely it was ...

Now that I could survive somehow it may no longer be necessarily to look back into what happened in the past but I remember the words of the nurse who was in charge of me. She said “There are some who just think it was lucky to have survived. But it is not good to think this way because thinking he/she was just lucky will not make him/her change the way of living.” I was so surprised to hear what this nurse told me. She told me that it was absolutely necessary to change the way of living basically. It is true that something was wrong. I thought I had to think what it was which drove me into a tight corner of life. So even now I never spend a day without remembering the day when I was taken to the hospital by ambulance because of cardiac infarction. It was early in the morning. I did not know what happened to me but one thing was certain. It was something irrevocable. When the doctor told me the name of the disease I thought that I was going to die this way and how lonely it was to die this way, namely, alone and with many things undone.

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Monika,
Exactly. Many nurses and doctors did me a favor. I learned many things from the conversation with them.

[monika]

An important thought - and this nurse really did you a favor, as I see things.

Have a good Sunday,
Monika